111 days to go...

Dave got a 'yes' from Pastor Mike to be able to marry us!! It was very exciting! Dave told us last Monday, and we did our Pre-marital counseling survey on Wedniesday night before the ONE service at 7:30. It was 156 questions long! Matt and I were both a little weary about what exactly would be asked, but it turned out to not be too bad at all. We did talk about a few of the questions afterwards that we remembered. Now, we're just waiting for it to come back with the results so we can start our actual counseling with Dave. That should be exciting...
I have had a trying time these last few months. I can not get people to understand what kind of stress I am really dealing with, and they just keep pushing. This stress is realyl have a negative affect on my body and causing some changes to occur that are not good for me, but no one will understand. It is also causing me to have mood swings, and I admit it because I know I am, and it is costing me more than just these severely agonizing pains to my body. But I really can't help it, and I don't know what to do about it. There are several people manipulating me with stuff and I can't handle it. I don't think that I have ever been more ready for June 7th to be here than I am now. I need to get all of this decision crap behind me and onto better decisions about my actual life. I'm still more than ready to just get in the car and go to the courthouse, or Vegas for that matter, and just do it that way. Matt doesn't want that, so I'll make him happy by giving him what he wants. I think I'd be a lot happier if we'd just do that. But I don't guess that it really matters what I want... and I'm the BRIDE. I feel like I'm in "Bridewars" with this wedding... and it's not even the case as it was in the movie.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at the point of just letting everything happen however it feels like happening. If someone on the street wants to make my plans for me, so be it. That's the point I've gotten to. I'm not losing friends over something that I can not control and they want to be pushy about.
I may lose friends from writing just this, but I guess everything happens for a reason and I'm just going to give everything to GOD and let Him handle this, because it is no longer in my own hands.
On a positive note, Matt and I had an amazing Valentine's Day. Well, after I got done working, of course! He had left me a single rose in the seat of my car when I got off, and I came home to find the present he got me along with another rose on my bed, and a bouquet of star-gazer lilies and roses on my dresser! :) My present was a cute little picture frame with a picture of us from the night we got engaged. <3 We got the Hockey Love package deal to see the Preds play that night as well. It included a picture, the tickets, and 2 food vouchers that got us a hot dog and a small drink. Not such a lovely V-day dinner, but it was alright. The seats were a little high for me, as I have a fear of heights, but it got a little better as the night went on. It was such an exciting game!!! And the PREDS ended up winning after one overtime, and then a shootout! :D Matt and I were so happy!!!
And on that happy note, I leave you for the afternoon! Have a great rest of President's Day!