Monday, March 30, 2009

Packin' Up & Movin' Out!

haha....

I am packing up my CRAP... that's what I've come to terms with... that everything I have is CRAP... geeez I'm such a pack rat!
I'm not moving out just yet, they said not until April 15th. So, I have a little while, but I don't have all that much time to actually pack my stuff up with going to school, work, and planning this wedding. I always TRY to stay on top and ahead of the game, but usually end up getting behind anyways... so hopefully this will actually help a little.

The looks of it right now, however, is some things are in boxes, and a lot of stuff is just piledi n the middle of my floor..... so not looking too promising. I can't even get off of my bed. Matt is helping me, so I'm kind of stuck on the bed surrounded by stuff on it & also on the floor! It's a MAD HOUSE!! It's kind of exciting, too, though. Just in the sense that I'm GETTING OUT OF THIS DARNED PLACE!!!! haha.

I'm not opposed to anyone wanting to help us actually move!!! We just need able bodies & possibly trucks!! :) I'm not forcing anyone to help, though, so don't feel obligated! :) All that would be required of your services would be to pack up trucks full of stuff, and then just stack boxes, etc. into the apartment. Nothing else would be required! :) haha.
Just wanted to update... because I needed something to do besides pack. :)

Wonderful Tonight

So, last night I met up with my Aunt Susan at an amazing restaurant in Franklin called Buca di Beppo's! It was interesting!!! :) I finally got to meet my newest cousin, Hudson, who is 3 1/2 months old. He is his father reincarnated! It's scary! LOL :) It was fun getting to catch up with her and her mom! She mentioned she wants to have a wedding shower for me in Memphis, so that should be a fun trip. We just have to figure out a good time for it!

Today, we figured we would get a call back frmo Chelsea Place letting us know if we were able to get the apartment or not. Since they were supposed to call us back on Saturday, we decided to just go ahead and call them ourselves. Matt talked to the manager, or whoever is over the applications and figuring out who gets in! (haha) She first said that we didn't make enough and that we'd need a gaurantor, and Matt told her that the lady we dealt with said we should just make it. So, she asked to call back after re-calculating. I guess it worked, because we don't need a gaurantor anymore! haha! So, now we just have to find a time to go sign the lease and paperwork!! We can move in April 15th!!!! It's exciting and stressful all at the same time!!!! Please PRAY for us!!!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Moving right along...

A lot has happened in the last week.
Matt and I took our engagement pictures with Angie Gambill on Thursday. We were in fear that we might not get to take them, since it had been raining all week. They'd called us on Wednesday saying that we may not be able to because of the rain. So, we were hoping and praying that we would miss the rain. The weather said that their would be scattered showers Thursday, but that it should clear up by around 9 a.m and be back late afternoon. We were so lucky! Angie said pictures would be better if the day was overcast, and that it exactly what we got! It was great! We had them taken at Cannonsburg. I'd never been there before, and it was a good place for pictures. I can't wait to see them!!! :) She said it'd be a week to a week and a half. Now, we just have to figure out what package we want. We want the Storybook package (the biggest), but we're going to take the 2nd biggest package. I just hope we can make the payments.... since money is tight.
Matt and I also did something else on Thursday!! We went to look at apartments, again. We started at Saddlebrook Apts. because we were more impressed with them and their price ($535/month). They were running a deal where you'd get the 1st month free, and all you had to pay up front was $100. So, we were set on that and I was ready to cut them a check for $100. We decided we'd go to one more apartment to just make sure that's what we wanted. We figured that Chelsea Place couldn't beat their prices, because the apartment equal to that of Saddlebrook's was $615/month and 2 sq. ft. less. It ended up being a great time to go! We found out they were also doing a free first month, and we got to roll dice to see how much we'd get off our rent. We ended up getting a 10, which equalled $100 off our rent!!! :) Then, she looked through her weekly focus sheet and found us an apartment with reduced rent price! So, we ended up getting an apartment on the ground floor for $490! That's the starting price of their smallest one bedroom apartments!!!! So, we filled out the application, and now we're just waiting to hear something back from them if we got it or not! I'm hoping we did! I can move in April 15th, so that's exciting!!! I can't wait! Hopefully, we get it!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Ups & Downs...

I'm getting discouraged again.... :(
Things are turning sour and I don't know how to stop them.

THINGS LEFT TO DO:
1. Find a Wedding Cake. [I have no clue what I want, still, and have no clue where to get it from. I'm kind of scared I won't have one due to the lack of funding b/c of carelessness on someone elses part.]
2. Find a place to rent chairs from. [Everyone charges way too much a piece for chairs! Same issue as above, financial.]
3. Get my wedding dress back & get fitted; finish paying for it. [They said the date it's supposed to come in is April 15th, so hopefully it comes in on time so I can actually get alterations done if I need them.]
4. Figure out a shoe situation for me: flats, flip-flops, or none at all.
5. Figure out WHAT to put in my favor boxes I already have. [My aunt bought the boxes I wanted for me, so now I just need something to put in them. We have idea's, but yet again, financial issues are in the way.]
6. Buy bubble machines.
7. Engagement pictures & choose package. [We are having our engagement pictures taken next Thursday (March 26th) at 10:30 a.m. The package we choose is solely dependent upon our finances, ONCE again... :( ]
8. Rehearsal Reception location/caterer. [We've gotten quotes from a few different places, but it's another expense I'm not sure we can pay for.]
9. Food for the actual reception. [There are rules about what we can and can not have at our venue (like no crockpots or making food there, etc.) so, we have to be careful & it's money, again.]
10. Music playlist selections. [This is in working progress.... we add songs almost every other day. iPod.]
11. Figure out the songs everyone is walking out to.
12. Our harpist bailed on us today, so I'm really discouraged about that. [I had my heart set on it, only to be crushed. :( ]
13. My jewelry & my girls' jewelry.
14. Hair & Make-up. [My mom will more than likely do my hair, and I wil probably do my makeup myself.]
15. Veil or no veil? [That is the question. I'm not real fond of them, but Matt wants me to wear one. It's an outside wedding and they made me hot just trying on inside stores....]
16. Tiara or flower beret?
17. Finalize linens & table arrangements.
18. Unity Candle alternative. [We've decided on really liking the sand unity, but it's expensive as well. But it's a nice souvenir from the wedding that can be displayed in our home.]
19. Speaking of home... we need to find one. [ :( money big issue here.]
20. Start pre-marital counseling with Dave. [He has yet to get back to us about the day we asked him about to start last week.]
21. Get Marriage License.
22. Groomsmen gifts.
23. Parent/Grandparent gifts.
24. "Welcome" guest table deco., etc.
25. Program's. [I wanted fans since its outside, but they are too expensive. :( ]
26. Find servers, guest book attendants, set-up/clean-up crew.
27. Buy more stamps to send out invitations.
28. Get my aunt to address envelopes for me.

Wow, writing all this out really has me discouraged even more. :( Money is a big issue right now, and who knows what's going to happen. I don't want to have to postpone the wedding. That's my worst fear right now. I just need to pray to God... and I need everyone else helping me with prayer, too. So please help me. I'm getting depressed from this wedding, and that's not what it's supposed to be... it's supposed to be the happiest time of my life. But, I'm not happy. I'm at my absolute worst. My living situation has me completely falling apart. The ppl I live with absolutely do not care about me what-so-ever. They won't even provide food for me. :( Matt has had to pu; money out of his savings account just to make sure I have food. I really hate this. I want out and I can't go anywhere because I have no money. I'm getting treated like I'm a cheap little slave girl or something. All they care about is my dad's money... after he left, they didn't care whether or not I was okay. I just want to go somewhere that I'm loved and not slum. I feel like Matt's the only one who loves me right now. :(

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Too excited for words?

I THINK NOT!!!!!!

But, you'll have to wait to see why!!! Haha. :)

Today was a pretty decent day at work. I was actually in a good mood, since I got about 6 hours of sleep instead of 3.5 hours like I did the night before last. I was laughing & carrying on.
I was talking with my co-worker, Tracy, when another co-worker of ours, who is a pharmacist there, came to the Soda Shoppe to get a drink. Tracy was making casual conversation with her and mentioned that she didn't see her last week & asked if she'd been off work. She said she had worked the first couple days of the week & had the rest of the week off because it was her wedding anniversary & her husband took her to Disney World in Orlando! How exciting?!
She went on further saying they went around and around trying to figure out where to go. Then, they came up with the idea of going somewhere where they could just completely forget out what all has went on in the past year for them. Their son died last fall in a car accident & he was only 23 years old. It was really tough on them, & she didn't come to work for several months after. I think maybe February she came back. It is still very hard on her, but she is the most uplifting and encouraging person I've ever met! Although it was very upsetting for her that she lost her son, she looked at it as if it was his time to go & that God had a plan! This defines a very strong woman & mother of God in my eyes!
She was just talking on & on of how much fun they had & just relaxing in Orlando at Disney. I told her that I'd never been there & wondered if it'd be a good place to have my honeymoon at & she gave me the most excited response back! She filled me with excitement with how she was going on about it, so I had my mind set on going to Disney World!!! :D I IMMEDIATELY texted Matt that I needed him to come to work that I needed to talk to him. I told him that he needed to take me to Disney World for our honeymoon and gave him the info that I got from my co-worker about where they stayed and the website they got their deal on. So, we looked at several deals on the site & they are really good ones!! We can both go (flights to and from & hotel included) for 4 days (Mon-Fri), with passes for 3 of the parks for about $1500!!! :D The hotel is a 4-4.5 star resort, too!!! :D I'M SO EXCITED!!! We haven't booked it yet, but will A.S.A.P!!! I'm so excited & can't wait!!! :D
So, that's all I've got to tell! It's been pretty nice to know that I'm actually going to get a honeymoon when I'm SUPPOSED to get one, and not 3-4 months afterwords (which would've been fine, too). I thank her so much for giving me such a great idea and where to find the deals at!!! :D

Monday, March 16, 2009

Going to the Chapel & we're gonna get married...

We now have pretty much all the things we need to just GO get married! Ha ha! We went and picked up Matt's wedding band from the jeweler since it came in today. We had to special order a ring for him since he has a big honkin' finger! (lol) Size 13! But, now we have it and if we wanted to, we could just GO GO GO and get married! :) I'd be happy with that, but I'm NOT going to waste all the money that's already gone towards our big day! I just hope it happens now... I don't want to have to postpone it because someone doesn't want to pay for it! It's only 83 days away... so they need to get on the ball! But, anyways! Thought this would be a good note for the week! They said it wasn't going to be in until April 8th... and it wasn't even a full week and it came in!

On another good note... only 44 MORE DAYS UNTIL THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! (That's not including the week after for finals... but still something to ENJOY!)

Friday, March 13, 2009

Twitchy Eyes..

So, I didn't have a twitch when I woke up this morning, or for the majority of the day at work. It happened after Matt came to see me at like 10:00 and told me he'd done something I had asked him previously not to do, and I started to think more about it. It has to do with the wedding and the finances of it... I'm getting stressed out again. I'm not even sure if we're going to have the money to FINISH paying what we've already started paying for on it and get the rest of everything else we need paid for. We can't postpone, because I am NOT NOT NOT just going to eat the money we already paid! And we've already printed out 95% of the invitations, printed out the rsvp's, and sent out the save the dates... WHICH we bought ourselves, and can no longer afford to buy anything else b/c we spent too much on ink. Way more than we ever wanted. :( We've already paid for pretty much half of the venue, and there's not a way to push the wedding to a different date without it costing another arm and leg. We've also already paid half of the bill for the place that my mom and grandparents and some others will stay in and that will also cost another arm and a leg to cancel those reservations and move them. We haven't even made a dent in the cost of our photography... Only half of my wedding dress is paid for, too.
I really wish a certain someone, a certain GROOM TO BE, would have just let me have my way go to the courthouse or VEGAS and then just have a big reception or something. I know that it's not really what I wanted, but I knew it would save some money at least. I really wish that the $2400 that I have gotten for the wedding would be enough to actually pay for a wedding these days. But, it's not.

Geez, why do I have to cry? This is why I'm stressed:

All of the wedding money that had been saved up for me by certain someones got used to buy their stupid alcohol that they are addicted to (about 10 bottles, AT LEAST, of the biggest bottle of Captain Morgan you CAN buy), and $500 of it went towards some STUPID STUPID STUPID Nascar car's. Matt and I have tried to pay for stuff, but with our very little paid part-time jobs, we can't. I just feel like I am not even a part of the picture... that was what the money that was saved up for, but not what is has been used for... and now I don't even know if I can pay for the rest of my stuff.. I asked my dad for more money, but he won't even give me any. It's because someone decided it'd be better to quit their job and be out of a job for going on 6 or so months now! Get your butt up and get a job!

Yes, I know GOD will provide... but I don't feel this is "important" enough for Him to provide for. There will be way better things He can provide for us later on down the road...
It's just that they said they'd pay for it, but seriously, what is $2400 going to get you if you have an actual wedding in 2009????? I guess we'll just ask for money as our wedding gifts to pay for the wedding! I don't want to do that b/c we could use the money for bills and other things after the wedding... but what am I supposed to do???

THIS IS WHY I HAVE A TWITCHY EYE!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Day-by-day Replay :)

This will be a short update since yesterday's was so long! I became the SLAVE BRIDE again last night, as Matt & I printed out 1/3 of our invitations and printed out 135 R.S.V.P cards. I had to make just one cut on the invitations, but the rsvp's had 3 to a page & Matt decided that it'd be easier to put lines around them so I'd know where to cut... it only made it more tedious, needless to say. I got done around 10:15 last night cutting out the rsvp's. Now, we just need to buy MORE black ink to finish the invites and we'll be done with that part! :)

This morning, Matt & I went to Pinnacle Bank and opened up our very own JOINT ACCOUNT! YAY! HOW EXCITING! :) haha! Wow, I just had deja' vu while typing that first sentence... weird!

TODAY IS MATT'S MOTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONNA!!! :)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

So, maybe I should blog more than once a month... haha!

I can't believe it's really been almost a month since she last blogged! Oops! haha... just been busy getting things done for school and the wedding! I don't even know if I can even catch you up with everything that's gone on since Valentine's Day.... it's been so long! I know that I wasn't in the best of moods then, but I'm a little better now. I guess I can kind of go backwards and do most recent happenings to what I can remember from abuot a month ago! :)

It has been a pretty trying month, to say the least. I know I have gone from days like I had around V-Day, to having really good days here lately. So, that's a good update I guess. I'm really trying hard to not be as stressed as I have been during the planning process, and it's been alright. :D

Hmm.... Well, yesterday (Tuesday) I bought Matt's wedding band! Whoa big spender! just kidding! But it's a nice, pretty plain, Titanium band that has kind of a squared middle and a circular ring. (I guess you'd need a picture to really understand, but I forgot to do that before leaving the house earlier.) It was only $100, but I was glad to have that out of the way, at least. I was really surprised, however, that Kay Jewelers had the exact same prices as Jared. I was hoping to find a good price, but the same rings at both places were the exact same prices. Although, Kay's did have a bigger selection of better priced rings. Jared didn't have Titanium rings, but did have the Tungsten like Kay's. I just hope Matt's happy enough with his choice to wear it for the rest of his life! If not, I guess he can get over it! Ha! :)

Monday night, Matt started printing out our invitations. They are too cute! :) I think he printed about 10 and the black ink started running out, so we ended up having to buy more yesterday while we were out and haven't started printing anymore yet. We sent out Save the Dates several days of last week, so you should be getting yours soon, if you haven't gotten it already! :) They are not the actual invitations. Just an FYI since a few people have never heard of a save the date and thought they were! :) Although, I would've been fine with them being the invitation. That'd be a cute idea to have magnetic invitations! Then, you wouldn't lose it before the actual wedding. Just wish we would've thought about that before we bought the stuff to do our invitations! haha!

This past weekend on Saturday, there was a Bridal Fair at my venue, Oakland's Mansion!!! It was free to the public, and I was really excited about getting to go since it came available that I didn't have to work! So, I had my mom come up and she brought my cousin Danielle, and we all went to the fair together after eating at Toot's. It was really fun, and a lot better experience than my last bridal show affair! My mom won one of the prizes being given away, about 5 minutes after we'd been there. It was an etiquette book, which was kind of funny because she made jokes about us being country and illiterate, since we're from the "woods" and redneck! Haha... it was all in fun! My mom's main goal of coming to the wedding fair was to check out the area for the wedding and reception, so she could get a feel of what we were working with and needed for the BIG DAY! (Oh, and by the ways, it's only 88 days away!!! HOLY CRAP!!!)

Anyways, it was a nice event! We got to sample different foods from caterers, and lot of cake!! I liked Maples the best I have to say! I was looking for a good strawberry cake because that's what Matt wants, and they had the best! So, we just need to get a design for that. That's one of the bigger things we need to get done, besides finding a place that we can rent chairs from at a DECENT price.... $1 a chair is pretty expensive when you have a long list of attendees! My mom came up with an amazing idea for the wedding, and I can't wait to see it in action! I just hope it turns out the way we see it! I've never seen anything like it at any other wedding, or even heard of others doing it, so hopefully it'll WOW everyone else, like I think it might! haha... I guess as long as it WOWS me, then that's all that matters, right?! :) I love the idea, and after talking to my mom about things this weekend, our wedding is actually an IMAGE in my head instead of just crazy and random things strewn everywhere! It's all coming together, and I'm getting more excited about it! I still wish it was here already, but I know it's going to be great! :) I'm so excited! Also, over the weekend, I got to see my Maid of Honor, Erin and her baby Henry! I haven't seen either of them since he was born in December, so it was really great to see them both! :) He slept the majority of the time, so I didn't get to see him in action, but he was cute all the same! We got him to grin at us when he would wake up for a minute, and I loved every second of it! I was getting my hair colored for most of the time they were there, so I didn't get to spend as much time as I would've liked with them, but it was good to see them!

Matt and I were offered a FREE leather couch and loveseat when we get our own place by his parents! It was so exciting, too! And UNBELIEVABLY nice! We are so blessed to have such amazing people in our lives! So, now we have a couch, loveseat, endtables, and we bought a nice coffee table at Big Lots for $57! YAY!!! We both have bedroom furniture, so that's not a problem at all! We may be getting a kitchen table set for free as well, depending on the size of place we get to make sure we have room for it! I totally believe that GOD WILL PROVIDE! And He definitely has for us! I know I am very thankful for it all, and Matt is, too! We've been looking for a place to live, and if we just HAVE to we'll be in an apartment. I'm fine with that, but we've been looking at foreclosures around Rutherford County to buy so we're not completely throwing that money away. Plus, apartments are so expensive here in Murfreesboro, sometimes you're just better off to be paying a house note for the same price! We'll see though, we can only pray about it and keep looking! :)

I think that we are getting our engagement pictures taken, FINALLY, on March 24th before we go to the Preds game that night. We've tried and tried to get them taken for a while, but it never worked out the other times, so hopefully this times a GO! It should be fun! And I can't wait to be at the Sommet Center cheering on my boys! Hopefully, it'll be as exciting as last night's game, but we win! :D
I'm going to try my best to blog a little more than once in a month next time!!! I'm on Spring Break right now, so I have some time, but I am working A LOT A LOT! So, we'll see! Anyways, Thanks for reading this exciting life I lead! Have a great rest of the week!!!